As I lay in bed feeling cold even though I am wrapped up in your arms,As I long for you but that is apart of yourself that I and you both know you just can't give to me.No matter how sweet I am to your soul.
I understand,I know that I am a wild one,I am a lot for some and hard for others but these are some things that I wish I could have done.I understand that,It is what it is but,these are somethings that I have never truly gotten the chance to say.I wish I would have held you more because then maybe I would have appreciated it more when you were once warm to me.I wish I would have opened up to you more,Broken down my walls and given you my trust.Then maybe you would have felt as if you could tell.me more,or come to me when you have burdens on your chest.Now that I have grown,I realize that you have needed a friend to just vent to all along.
If I could turn back time,I would have shown you more things that I am interested in because then maybe you would have seen what makes me truly unique and what makes me myself; from Turtles to Halloween.I would have started more conversation even if it was just smoke talk, because then you would always have something to ease your mind from your troubling worries.
If I could do it all over again,I would have kissed you less.I wouldn't have presented myself as so easy around your friends.
If I could change back to the way it was before ,I would have pushed you more to become the man I know you can be.
If I could turn back time,I think I would have waited.I wouldn't have given you my all as fast as I did,I would have waited longer and became a closer friend.
If I could turn back everything that I ever did badly in my life,it was not listening to you,not hearing you out,Not trying to know you deeper,Not giving you your space when it was needed but most of all being a bad friend by taking my own heart break and putting it against you,the world might be against you but I am not against you.
What I wish I could have done the most,Is not taking enough time to try becoming your best friend.
